I feel like my emotions are all over the place. I have always been a person that likes changes, I've always been the person that likes to move, to go to new places or to just go with the flow. For some reason this next change that is about to take place in two days. Is SCARING me!!! For one I am going to another state by myself. Wain will be staying in Utah to finish his last semester at UVU. So that is two months that we will be away from each other. Do you get why I'm scared yet? If not let me explain more. I'm going to a state that I hardly know anything about, I don't know a lot of people there, I don't know what the economy is like out there, I don't know if I will like it, I don't know the scary parts of Arizona, I won't have Wain there to protect me. What it comes down to is that I'm scared of the unknown. But what I do know is that, We know its the right thing to do. We know that this is the next chapter and journey to our wonderful lives, I do know that it may be hard to be away from each other that long but we will make it and we will only be that much stronger because of it. I may be scared but I'm EXCITED beyond belief to get on with our lives, and to be able to start fresh and to be able to get to know some of Wains family better and to be able to make new friends, and the best part WE ARE LEAVING UTAH :) I am leaving behind my best friend Rebekah Greenway. I think this part is the hardest. Bekah and I have been together for 5 years. She is my best friend and I honestly don't know what I am going to do with out her. She is the sister I never had, she has helped me over come so much. She is the one person that I can count on for anything. It's going to be hard but thank goodness for technology we will be Skyping A LOT. I love you Bekah.
I'm leaving Friday to go to Kanab for my little brothers homecoming YES he's been home almost a month and he is finally speaking in church. I am going to stay there til the 23rd to hopefully trade our car in for a better one and to spend some time with my parents.
Next time I blog I will be in Arizona, hopefully I will have a lot goodness to report on like a job and a place to live :)
Good luck with the move. I couldn't help but think with your concerns, fears, and the unknown with this new change that you went on a mission where you didn't know the language, culture, norms... I think this new step in your life will be an easy transition for you and Wain. You may not be a missionary again but God has not forgotten about you.
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