Sunday Naps

I have been trying for the last two hours to take a nap, but I have so much on my mind that I decided I needed to get up and blog about it before I forget. Church today was AMAZING. We go at 8 am and I LOVE IT. It gives me the rest of the day to spend with Wain and rest and just to be able to do Sunday things. Today church was different there was a spirit about that I have NOT felt in a really long time. I believe it was because there were talks given about a subject that I am really struggling with, and that is embracing being a wife. Don't get me wrong i love being a wife. but sense I have been married I feel like I have lost part of who I am and my independence. I have always been the type of person and had the means to do it, to do basically whatever I wanted and when I wanted to do it and that has really been hard for me. Because it's NOT about me anymore. Wain and I are a family and my first priority needs to be my family. This passed week Wain and I made a really big decision for me to stop going to school. For the passed month or so I have felt like I should NOT be going to school. I didn't tell Wain of my feelings til about 3 days before school was to start again and we prayed about it and it felt right that I just take a brake(that's what I am calling it cause I want to finish) There are many reasons behind why I decided to take this break but I know it's for the best. and this it the hard part and a sister in the ward today was an answer to my prayers because we live in a society where women shouldn't just be WIVES or MOTHERS. or that we have to be better than the next door neighbor who has a Lexus sitting in there drive way and has a doctor degree. What's wrong with just being a WIFE or MOTHER? what better job could there be really. and this is where it gets hard for me because I want to be successful, I want to have nice things etc. But again it's NOT about me anymore. I am currently the "bread winner" in our family, and I have a WONDERFUL job that I am so grateful for. I am taking this break so that I can put my husband through school so that he can get his education which is so important. My goal this week is to embrace being a wife. I know this will benefit me in the long run when someone ask me what I am I can proudly say I am a wife and someday I am a mother. I have a lot to learn about myself especially with so much free time I am going to be discovering things about myself that I NEVER new. It may be hard at first by I know that I am NOT alone out there. Thank-you sister in the ward for helping me see my role as a wife a little bit differently.

On another note.. The summer is going way to fast. Exactly a month from today Wain will be going back to school. I have enjoyed the summer we have been able to enjoy each others company and to be able to just sit back and relax and enjoy the stresses of life. We have been to more parades than I have ever been to in my life. I am use to parades that last 1/2 hour. Nope not here they are HOURS.. I have enjoyed them because I have been with family members. Friday night we went up to Bountiful where Wain was suppose to be in Salt lake community college band. Well the instructor forgot his saxophone so he came and sat with me and my brother Thomas's family. Carleigh my niece was in the parade. Even though we didn't get to see her cause she was on the opposite side of where we were sitting. We had fun anyways.
It's such a small world. My sister in laws cousin was there as well. Come to find out she lives around the corner from us. She is in our ward but doesn't come so I will be making some visits to see her. We stayed the night at Thomas's and the next morning got up and went swimming for about 4 hours. It was so nice. I got sunburned which gave me so sun kissed cheeks. I love the feeling of being sunburned. I know I am weird. Then we had lunch at my favorite place Chipolie (however you spell it) It's so good highly recommend it. I am excited to go down to Kanab in a few weeks. It's the big Sorensen family reunion. I mostly excited to just go spend time with my family. I just have to keep talking Thomas to come down. It just won't be the same without them. If they don't come I am going to kidnap the kids and take them with me. well I think I am going to end on that. Hope everyone has a great week and know that its 5:20pm I better NOT take a nap or I won't be able to sleep tonight.