"3 years"

3 years ago today, I was at the temple making the best decision of my life. To be sealed for time and all eternity to my BEST FRIEND. I really can't believe that it has been three years. But I wouldn't trade these years for anything. We've had our ups and downs, tears, heart ache, stress, love, disagreements, and everything else that comes with a marriage, but I wouldn't trade it for anything. Wain is my world, and I would do anything for him. He helps me to be a better person, he loves me for me, he sees my full potential, my dreams are his dreams... I could go on and on how much I love this man.. Thank you honey for these three years and many many more to come.

 Wain got me really good this year. He is NOT the most romantic guy but he did really good this year. I went to work not knowing that he was not going to work. I came home to this....

We planned to go out to dinner, but I enjoyed that he made dinner at the house, and that we just got to be in our own little world and enjoy being with each other.


This time of the year is also difficult for me because it's one more year that we have not been able to have a baby. I dream of this day happening but at times it doesn't feel like its EVER going to happen. I try not to stress about it but that's not going to happen. I have been trying to read my scriptures or something gospel related and the other night I was reading Boyd K Packers talk from Aprils conference called, " And a little child shall lead them" this talk really gave me comfort. Especially the story he told..

Another young couple tearfully told me they had just come from a doctor where they were told they would be unable to have children of their own. They were brokenhearted with the news. They were surprised when I told them that they were actually quite fortunate. They wondered why I would say such a thing. I told them their state was infinitely better than that of other couples who were capable of being parents but who rejected and selfishly avoided that responsibility.

I told them, “At least you want children, and that desire will weigh heavily in your favor in your earthly lives and beyond because it will provide spiritual and emotional stability. Ultimately, you will be much better off because you wanted children and could not have them, as compared to those who could but would not have children.”

Still others remain unmarried and therefore childless. Some, due to circumstances beyond their control, are raising children as single mothers or single fathers. These are temporary states. In the eternal scheme of things—not always in mortality—righteous yearning and longing will be fulfilled.

You can find this talk here.. 

https://www.lds.org/general-conference/print/2012/04/and-a-little-child-shall-lead-them?lang=eng

I know the Lord is on our side, its just sometime hard to except something that we have NO control of. I know that Wain and I will be parents its just the WAITING, and WONDERING when its going to happen that is the hardest part, and excepting that this is the Lords will, NOT our will. 


In other news. I finally got new glasses. Thanks for AMAZING vision insurance I only had to pay $75 for a $700 visit to the eye doctor. 
- I started my early morning shift at work, I have to leave the house by 5am so I get up at 4am. But I love it because that means I am done by 2:30 and I still have the day to do stuff...
-We are still trying to sell our lease, our land lord said we could pay $500 to get out of it so we are thinking about it, but we need to find a new place to live first. We are hoping everything will work out for the best. 

Well that's it. Wain is making me watch star wars because I have NEVER seen it before.. I will probably fall asleep. Tchau