How Many Chances?

I have so much on my mind but I want to start with the fun little min vacation if that's what you want to call it that we went on. Wain had a music conference down in St.George. So I tagged along, and I'm so glad I did. I was able to hangout with one of my best friends Alisha Thornton whom I have not seen in awhile. We just stayed at her house talking about life and the good O days. Then later in the evening we had a BBQ at the condo we were staying at. It was tons of fun. We were going to play games but once again when you get a bunch of adults together we do more talking than anything. I really enjoyed hanging out with everyone. I can't wait to do it again. Saturday, I tried sleeping in but nope it's like my body has an automatic alarm clock and wakes up at 7 am. So I got up and watched some tv. which is a luxury for us because we don't have cable. We had to be out of the condo by 12pm. So I was trying to think of things that I wanted to do, and the only thing I really wanted to do was to go to the temple. I didn't have a dress with me, so I thought that was out of the question. I dropped Wain off at his conference and I called my cousin Jeni to see what she was doing and she wanted to go to the temple, so she let me barrow a skirt and that's what we did, and I'm so glad I did. There is something about the St.George temple that is so close to my heart. It's where I would do baptisms for the dead, it's where I received my endowments and it's where I was married. Every time I walk in the doors of the St.George temple a flood of emotions come to mind, and is a reminder to me of the sweet and tender mercies and blessings that I have received and continue to receive in my life. That really goes for any temple. How blessed I am. Anyway, Saturday my mom, grandpa Perkins, Aunt Jackie, Aunt Liz, and Uncle Bert, we all went to the Morman Tabernacle concert and can I just say AMAZING. Dixie State was celebrating their 100th birthday so MOTAB was invited to do a concert. The first song was the national anthem, and I got a little teary eyes because its not very often that you hear the national anthem sang with love and reverence. As I stood with my over my heart and thought how truly blessed we are to live in such an amazing country. Yes, I don't agree with a lot of what is going on in our country but I think we live in a great country, and sometimes to help me realize that I have to think back on my mission. Where I saw things and heard things that I hope I never have to experience again. It helps me to appreciate all that I do have. Anyways, it was just an over all great experience.

On to a not very fun topic but I need to get it off my chest. How many chances are to many? I have always tried my hardest to be a good friend/sister/daughter etc. But it seems like I try to much to give these friendships a chance. I feel like I go the extra mile to be the type of friend I would want in someone. I have let people walk all over me, I will NOT give examples because I don't want to offend anyone that may read this. But, I feel I have done what I need to do and part of me just wants to give up and not care anymore and to not let these type of people in my life, but at the same time I can't give up because I invested so much time, energy into gaining these friendships. When is to much? and should I let go and just not care anymore? Because to me it feels like I am there friend when it will benefit or is convenience to them. I just don't know what to do and it really makes me sad. I hope, that I have never been this type of friend and I if I have I am sorry, I NEVER want to be that type of person.

With that off my chest, with next week being valentines I want to start the LOVE off right by letting you all know what my loves are....
-My husband... I can't get enough of him, he is everything to me. I wouldn't be the person I am today if it wasn't for his unconditional love, his patience and understanding. He is my world.
-My parents, I don't tell them enough but they are the best parents a girl could ask for.
-My Heavenly Father & Jesus Christ.. NO words can express the love that I have for them. That I am not perfect and never will be but that they continue to love me. I see their hand in my life ever day.
-Ice cream. OH how I love you.
-Work- I have a love hate relationship with you but for the most part I love you and am grateful for the job that I have and that I work for such a great company that really cares about there employees.
Friends-I wish I could name all of you but that would take FOREVER. but I'm grateful for each one of you, and you know who you are.
-My brothers & Sister in laws. I never thought I would be so close to my brothers as I am know. I love each one of them even though they drive my crazy sometimes. I'm grateful that I have them in my life, I'm grateful that they have chosen such wonderful wives. (kolton I'm sure you'll find a good one too.) and I'm grateful that they have all chosen to have children. My nieces and nephews are the best. I love them, and I've said it before they bring such a sweet spirit in the home. I love them all.. So brothers keep making babies so I can to have cute nieces and nephews.
-I love that I have a warm home to come home to
-I love to be loved
-I love my top pillow bed
-I love to travel and wish I could do it more
-I love that my husband is going to school so that he will have the opportunity to support our family.
-I love to go shopping, wish I could do it more.
-I love technology
-I love modern day medicine. Cheesy, I know but it's true.
-food
-temples
-our one car, even though I would really LOVE a new car
-books
I'm sure the list could go on and on but I'm so in love with so many things.. LOVE is in the air.