Worst Weekend!

I honestly don't even know where to begin this post. My 4 day weekend was suppose to be WONDERFUL but it didn't end up that way. Let me explain, I got off work around 2pm on Thursday planned to leave right after that to go down to Kanab to see my family. We left when we were suppose to and everything seemed fine. Wain checked the oil in the car and we were on our way. We made it 5 miles outside of Fillmore when the car started to over heat. I was freaking it out. Fillmore of all places is probably one of the worst places to get stranded. We made it to a gas station and we let the car cool down and Wain did some other things. Thinking we could make it to Beaver NOPE didn't happen we made it to the next Exit, which has a car shop. We stopped and some really nice guy helped us. Come to find out the head gasket blue up. By this time I was stressing thinking we have no money for this. We were saving for my doctor appointment and to go to Vegas. This was NOT on the list of things we were saving for. I ended up having to call my dad which ended the surprise that we were coming down. He said he would come pick us up but that wouldn't be for another 5 or so hours. The guy at the car shop told us that the day before Fillmore had opened up a rental car. That re leaved a little bit of stress. But wondering where the money was going to come from. The nice man let us leave the stupid car there and its still there. We ended up renting a Honda Civic. Which I loved and wanted to buy after driving it for a few days. We made it to Kanab by 8pm, which we should have been there by 6... I couldn't sleep that night worrying about how we were going to get the car to either provo or kanab. who would buy it, I just wanted to beat it with a bat. But wain wants to try and sale it for parts. It really was a good car. I only had it for two years. It makes me sick thinking about it. I stressed the whole time we were in Kanab. I couldn't enjoy being there cause I was worried about so many other things.
We went to Paige AZ with my mom, who basically lives out there. We tell her all the time that she just needs to buy a house boat and live in it. She is always there. It was a nice drive and we got to spend some time with my mom. We also went to graduation, this will probably be the last graduation I go to in a very long time. I knew about 3 of the kids graduating. It made me feel really OLD cause they were in 6th grade when I graduated. WOW. wain and I took my Niece and nephew to attempt to fly a kit but it was not windy enough but it was fun. They are the cutest things EVER. Then we just hungout. Mom made some really good BBQ. Then Saturday morning we had to drive the car back to Richfield because it was $45 a day to rent the car and we didn't think it was worth keeping. So my mom picked us up in Richfield then we went and had breakfast and Candy Rock Mountain. It was really good.
After I think about this weekend there could have been something worse that could have happened to us. It's just very stressful to have to rely on other people. My parents were kind enough to let us take Kolton's car. So we will have that for a couple of weeks then we will become a one car family which is fine with me. I will just ride my bike to work which is only about a mile away. it will give me some good exercise.
We came back up to Provo Monday morning just in time for a BBQ. It was so much fun there were about 20 of us. We had it up Provo canyon at one of the parks. It was such a beautiful, and so relaxing to just be around some amazing people and to build relationships with people that are in our ward. We stayed up there tell about 5:30 then I think we all got pretty tired and cleaned
up and headed home. I took a few pictures of the outing.







Onto another subject that is something that is very personal and something that at times brings me to tears and that I have wrote about in early posts. My best friend and I are in the same ward and she and I have became really good friends with some sisters in the ward. I truly admire them and yesterday at the BBQ they said something about how sisters in our ward are having a hard time with EVERYONE being pregnant and them NOT being pregnant. and that its being pulled into the doctrine. I understand completely where these sisters are coming from. But I think I have a different attitude about it. Wain and I have been trying for 8 months basically the whole time we have been married. I was told that I would NEVER get pregnant. I have NEVER felt bitter about the situation, I have NEVER asked WHY ME? but instead I have been asking myself WHAT CAN I LEARN FROM THIS? I know that I will have children it may NOT be in my time frame, it may NOT be the way I want it to. But I know it will happen because I have Faith that it will. More than anything in this world I want to be a mom. As I was listening to my friends talk to me about what a great example I am of NOT giving up and NOT being bitter it brought tears to my eyes. They want me to speak up in church more, and be the example that I need to be of NOT losing hope even though at times it seems not fare. I hope I can be this example that I ought to be. I hope that I can reach out to these sisters that need my help. Like I said before when I was around 16 or so when I was diagnosed with PCO. which is cysts on the ovaries. About a month ago I was referred to a doctor that specializes in that and also fertility. I was really scared to make the appointment thinking what more BAD news I was going to hear. Today Wain and I went to the DR, where I got to see the cysts for the first time. I have 30 cysts on my left side and 25 on my right. that is A LOT. I thought the DR was going to tell me I needed to have surgery but he was the answer to a lot of prayers about Wain & I having kids. He said, NO Dr should have told me that I would NEVER have kids. That technology is so advanced and that there is so many ways to get pregnant. That has made my day. I was given some meds to help me become regular and to hopefully help me get pregnant. Does this make me nervous YES. Because I know that its going to take time, and I am ready for this next chapter of my life. I know the Lord has truly blessed my life, I know He knows what is best for me. He knows me better than I know myself. Who knows these pills may not work and we will have to go onto the next process. But I will do anything to be able to have children. I know there are special children waiting to come to our family. It's all about PATIENCE and the Lords timing. Alright, I think I have gone on long enough...